One Night To Change A Life Chapter 6

    "Wait what? And you think it's mine?" I asked. It's the only thing close to a comprehensible thought that I had running threw my mind at that specific moment. Pregnant? How can that one little word change everything so easily? So fast? Wait, Alyssa just said something, "What? Sorry."

    "Dahvie, I told you, you're the only person I've been with, well besides my boyfriend but that was over 2 weeks later. It's yours, but Alex, my boyfriend, thinks it's his. He knows, he's so excited. I want to keep it that way, I don't know you. That night was a mistake and know I've got to deal with it and this is the best way for me to do that. I'm going to raise this baby, but I don't want you around, I don't want you to contact me at all. After this, we're complete strangers." she said as tears streaked down her face.  I just sat there in complete shock, what could I possibly say to that? Nothing, there was nothing to say, there's nothing that could fix this. I stood up and walked out the door without another word.

    I got in the car and started driving, I didn't know where I was going, I just knew I needed to get away. How do you get away without actually going somewhere though? Alcohol. My perfect, temporary escape from reality. I pulled up at a little liquor shop and ran in to buy whatever looked good. I walked out with 3 different kinds of vodka; cupcake, chocolate, and my personal favorite, green apple.

    By the time I reached the house it was about 6:30 and I must have looked like hell because the minute I walked in Jayy was up off the couch and looked like he had seen a ghost.

    "Oh my god Dahvie! Are you okay? I thought you were going out with someone?" he asked as worry filled his eyes. I couldn't even look at him, he'd never understand.

    "Ya I'm fine. What could ever be wrong?" I whispered staring down at my shoes as I made my way over to the couch.

    "No you're not," he wrapped his arms protectively around me, "I'm not stupid. It's obviously all you want to do right now is down those bottles and drift off forever." He put his hand under my chin and made me look up at him, I felt tears welling up. 

    "You don't know anything, you're just a kid." I felt hot tears spill over my cheeks as I heard those blatant lies echo threw my mind, of all people, I should know what it's like to have to grow up way too fast. Jayy grabbed my hand and pulled me over to couch, took to bag with my drink in it and pushed me onto the couch. After setting the bag on the coffee table and came over and sat in my lap pinning me down so I couldn't escape him. He made me look back up at him, "You have no idea how much I know. How much I've been through, how much I understand. And you especially don't know how much I've had to do to save my own fucking life, so I don't want to hear any of this 'you wouldn't understand' and 'I'm fine' crap. You cant lie to me, now please tell me why you're falling apart like this. You gave me a home, a chance to live, the least I can do is give you someone to talk to." his voice cracked at the end as he shed tears of his own.

    I wrapped my arms around his small waist and pulled him down closer to just hug him for a minutes as I tried to get my thoughts together. "You know, if I tell you this, I'll be telling you a little bit of my story. In exchange will you tell me a little bit of yours?" I whispered.

    Jayy pulled back and looked at me, after a few seconds he sighed, "sure, you might as well know what exactly you've taken me from. but right now we're talking about you. So what happened tonight? By any chance were you like dumped or something?" He asked cautiously.

    "I wish. I fucked up so bad, and know I don't even get the chance to make it right." Jayy was still watching me, waiting for me to explain so with nothing else to do I decided it would be best to just get it over with. "About a month again I had a stupid, drunken one-night stand with this girl Alyssa, that's who I was going to meet tonight.  Well, turns out she's knocked up, and she says it's mine." Before he could cut me off I quickly continued," You know every know and the I've thought of maybe settling down and having a family, but even now I won't get that chance. She has a boyfriend and is just going to play it off as it's his, raise the baby to think that's it's dad. I get no say, no chance to make this ok, nothing. Why'd she even have to tell me if this was how it's going to be? Just to hurt me? To try and teach me a lesson, be more careful when you randomly hook up?" Jayy shut up my rambling by hugging me again.

    "Look, I don't know why she decided to meet with you," he pulled back and brought both hand up and placed them on either side of my face gently to make me look directly at him," But I do know this, it wasn't your choice for you to not have any part in this child's soon-to-be life. Maybe you can work something out with her, you know like just to keep you up to date knowing that the kids alive and well? You would make an awesome father, and this is probably really selfish of me but I don't want you too. I know if you do, sooner or later you'll leave me, and I don't want to keep losing people. Dahvie, I need you."

    "I need you more than you know kid. I wont, cant, leave you. Not until you make" With his hand still on my check he slowly leaned a little closer to me, without thinking I mimicked his actions and our lips finally met in a slow, cautious kiss that said it all. The fear we both had at what was going on, the caution that we would do something wrong, but also something more, something I've never really experienced before, a small spark that didn't urge me to keep going farther but instead made me feel as if this was just enough. This is what I've always been missing, sweet caring kiss, not one filled with lust and need. I've been missing love.